It’s been almost four months since Lizzy’s passing. She was very ill and it was her time. No, I did not learn this for myself because I didn’t trust my reading to be unbiased about such an emotionally-charged issue. I asked a friend to do the connection and Lizzy was definitely ready to be helped along in her journey. So I made the vet appointment.
Unfortunately (or so I thought at the time), I was not allowed in the vet’s building (covid-19 restrictions). A tech came out to the car, got Lizzy, and brought her inside. Then the vet called me. I asked him to please call me when he was ready to actually do the euthanizing, and he did. This is what happened.
I had already connected with Lizzy before she went into the office building. In that connection, she was sitting in a chair (just like a mini person), smiling and waving at me. Then she was on my right shoulder – instead of my left shoulder where she always rode. She snuggled (that was both a visual image and a physical feeling), let me know she loved me (that was a knowing or a download of information), and then the vet called. Lizzy stayed on my shoulder for another fifteen seconds, then she rose up off my shoulder, staying in that same vertical position, hovered next to my face, spun around three or four times while rising a little above my shoulder, and then disappeared from view on that last spin. No fireworks, no bright lights, no sounds, just a gentle exit – as painless and worry-free as Lizzy crawling out of sight under the sofa.
I am so grateful for the friend who reminded me to connect to Lizzy during this time. My emotions were strong and sad so I might not have thought of it. And I’m grateful to the covid-19 policy at the vet’s office because I might not have connected if I’d been allowed to be with her. It all worked out in a way that was best for me.
My experience is probably unique, as is every other person’s experience with euthanasia. But the common thread throughout is that deep down on the soul level, animals know when their time has come – and they’re okay with it. I still miss Lizzy, but I have no regrets or worries.
Thank you Paula for reminding us that through life and death we are connected to our pets. Lizzy’s choice to climb onto your right shoulder is a perfect example of the messages they send us. It is a precious gift you found each other and shared time together. Thank you Lizzy.